Procrastinate? Yes please

So we have set a date for our engagement party.
AND THAT IS IT!!
24th of March & that's as far as it has gone. Why? I don't know. We are just not into it. So much organizing. I don't want to do it. Wills on the net researching our August holiday & I'm playing angry birds. Seriously.
We were even going to go look at display homes today.
Next weekend we were going to go down south & test out beers at the beer festival - for our wedding of course, brewery wedding & all. In the meantime we got a baby sitter, a reservation & discussing going to the movies here. What the heck?
Why are we doing this? I mean why are we doing nothing.
Urg I don't know.
I need to get cracking......after I pass this level.

HAPPY!!

Ok a few of my last posts have been erm a weeee bit negative. I am happy!!
Really I am. So there will be more happiness. But no sloppy vomit puppies holding hands & skipping over rainbows. Nope I am into that. And it's impossible for that to happen. Puppies can't skip.
Anyway HAPPY!!!
PS who wants to organize my engagement party & wedding? Huh? Anyone?
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Decisions

So after the realization that I don't even want a small wedding but rather a smaller wedding, I feel so much better.
Maximum 22 guests. On the beach then at a pub or brewery. Down south. I want it relaxed & private. Like us. I
Yay!! Anyway already found my dress. It's time to skinny down. Urg.

Wedding marriage

I know I promised a catch up. Things I will need to write about include homemade Xmas, proposal & the realization that I'm too old & cool for music festivals BUT I am so confused at the moment.
Weddings.
Why do we have them?
Why do I want to spend so much money on one day?
I want to marry Will. Not spend $5 grand on food.
I don't want politics about groomsmen & bridesmaids.
Don't even get me started on bucks dos & hens nights. That deserves its own post!!
Guests list drama. People you kind of have to invite because you know you have to. Gay. It's all G A Y.
I just want to marry Will. I dont want to find a good photographer or a nice celebrant or find the perfect venue.
Someone please tell me why do we have to go through all this trouble? Even small weddings have these problems.
Then I think we should elope but people might get sad but then the wedding is for us. It's our wedding. Me becoming a Hammond.
It's our love & we've always being private. I'm not a show pony (hence having a small intimate wedding) but I think I don't even want that.
Why do we have weddings? To celebrate our love for one another in front of everyone else? Everyone already knows that we love each other.
Yes I agree it's exciting getting all beautiful & wearing lovely clothes. Walking down the aisle with my dad & I will probably cry when I see Will standing there. It will be awesome getting drunk with everyone I love. I can't even remember the last time my favorite ladies we're all in the same room together.
So yes. Confused. Too many questions. Is it just me being difficult? Probably.